Bear Canyon Lake

A description of my wonderful weekend... 

I went camping this weekend at Bear Canyon Lake.  I went alone to get away from everything and find myself a little bit.

Since I got back I've been looking through the pictures, reliving the weekend.  I don't know what I was searching for out in the woods.  I just knew I had to go.  I am a believer lately in the space between the facts, the beauty that defies logic. Its the gray of life that fascinates me. The idea that I'm not just here to work and spend money and repeat the cycles.  I think stepping out of society for a weekend was a nice reminder of that. 

It also reminded me not to judge my actions and be hard on myself.  I need to lighten up and enjoy life more.  When I realized I'd forgotten my pillows I was annoyed with myself for about 15 seconds.  Then I remembered a line from Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy about the uses for a towel.  So I slept on my towel as a pillow for the weekend.  Even though I wish I'd remembered my pillows I don't really need to beat myself up about it. 

Sitting on the edge of the lake I could feel my soul smile.  When it rained and rained all night something inside laughed at the plans that I'd made.  How could I not?  If the weather doesn't want to let me make a fire to cook dinner I'll just have to eat it cold.

The biggest thing is that I walked around with a sense of childlike wonder all weekend.  I saw things I've never seen (a wild turkey!) and did things I've never done.  I was challenged in new ways.  I failed in new ways.  But I came out of it feeling good about myself, who I am, and the life that I'm leading.