The more things change the more they stay the same.

I haven't felt much like posting for a while.  I've been writing more in my journal and keeping things to myself.  I don't know that I'll be posting more regularly or not but I got motivated tonight to redo the website.  I had a vision of something simpler and still functional.  I wanted something very minimal.

I'd like to think I'm on an upswing right now.  I'm pretty happy with things.  I'm getting a new room mate this weekend.  I'm scared to live with another person but I think it will be good for me, and good for the dog. ;-)  Its one of my oldest friends and I know him very well.  I know the good and bad and some of what to expect.  I know that my life will be disrupted and changed but I'm ready for it.

I've been playing music more often and finding my voice again.  I spent many months not playing or feeling like playing.  Its odd to look back and remember that I used to practice with the last band three times a week and play out a couple of times a month.  I miss it tremendously.  I found an open mic that I can perform on my own and it gives me that great performance rush.  Its been great seeing people respond to my new songs positively.  I'm trying to take it slow and not do too much at once. 

In learning about myself I've found I like to think big.  I try to swing for the fences or shoot for the moon.  I don't think its a bad thing but sometimes I need to think smaller and focus on the next step.  I've started noticing when I get carried away with big plans and just live a little more in the moment. 

I've been working on myself a lot and I'm very interested in the subject of Happiness.  What makes me happy or unhappy?  How can I increase my happiness?  I found The Happiness Project and its been very insightful.  I especially liked this recent article about passion: Why is Passion so necessary for happiness.